Entitlements, fears and reactions, oh my…

Sometimes I work myself up into a bit of a tizzy and whatever is going on for me in that moment feels like it’s bigger than it is. Tonight, I had one of those moments.

I mean, in the moment it really feels like a big deal. I feel overwhelmed and upset and it seems like it’s a Problem. With a capital P.

But, after WhatsApping with my mom and then journaling about it, I realized…there are definitely some issues that would be good for me to work on for myself, but really…it’s not that big of a deal.

One of the questions that is great to ask ourselves is, What’s the worst thing that could happen? Like, in the scenario that we are playing out in our heads, What’s the worst possible outcome? That helps me to find the ultimate fear that I have in each situation.

There are definitely challenging parts of my situation, but nothing so big that I’m not fine. I AM fine.

I also am very, very glad to have a supportive family. That helps so much to know. I can’t imagine what it’s like for people who have absolutely nobody. I may not have many friends, especially ones who I talk to more than once every…6 months (at this point), but at the end of the day, besides my grandparents, my mom and my dad, I know that there are others who would have my back, if push came to shove. That’s very reassuring.

I’m also eating the rest of this Pillsbury chocolate chip cookie dough and I think I’m on a bit of a sugar rush. I know, I know…it’s not good to eat raw cookie dough. But it’s SO. FREAKING. GOOD.

One day…one day SOON, I will have a life that I’m proud of. One that I would be happy to post about on Facebook and Instagram. I look forward to that day! xo

*M

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